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Feel free to hit up the powers that be here at live journal if you want to take this screen name for yourself. I wont be posting new updates in it any longer. This "blog" was just a bad attempt to try and find a connection that I had lost with someone. Many days have gone by now and I am left with the fear of not knowing if there ever really was any connection at all.

I feel like im totally alone, and have felt that way for some time now. This account has only served to fuel that insecurity over and over again. A few years older now, I cant spring back like I used to be able too. The last few years have really kicked my ass. Its like I have been walking backwards 10 steps for every one step I took forward. The "Prize" is just to far away from me now.

Yeah, I know. Wah,wah ,wah. Woe is me and everyones life sucks sometimes. Get over it and move on.

I will, and I am. I can only say that I might not be as verbal as I would like to be., or as some of you may have grown used to. Its what I have been doing for a good portion of my life. As long as no one notices, we can all be ok. Oh, and to anyone who reads this who may feel that these words are meant to hurt or depress, that isnt the case at all. I apologize for the way this is going to come off to some people. But dont worry about it. Im already past it. Its just something I wanted to get down on paper, or html.

We all have played the rolls that we needed to play for eachother and I have no quams with anyone around me past or present. We were just being the people that we are.

Smile. It could always be worse than it is.

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